kEbenaran yAng mEnyakitkan...di aNtara mEreka bErdua...

i dah takde mood nak buat entry yg cute cute skang nie...i dah cukup pening kepala...penat jcard x ilang lagi...paperwork dah over deadline...then a personal problem timbul just about time...benci sangat sebab i x dapat nak handle semua problem dengan baik...
i sayang all my fren...i tau macam mane kawan baik i rase terhadap i...i akan cube sedaya upaya untuk tolong ape yang i mampu...i ingat lagi...mase tue kat bbu...first day training i keje jusco...i kenal dengan bad...and that moment i dah tambah 1 more bestfren...we do what best fren do...hangout together...sharing secret...and i blessed to have fren like him...and the other one...i knal kat jusco permas...mule mule macam kekwat but then...he's fun to be with...and i dah add another 1 bestfren to my list...2 of my bestfren but with different personality...

i tak tau nak mule macam mane...i love all my fren...and bile org baca entry nie org akan anggap i jahat...suke hancurkan hubungan kawan...dan org akan anggap yg lagi sorang bodoh gilekan laki...dan lagi sorang sanggup rampas org punye...tapi org x kenal kite macam mane...i tau dieorg macam mane...they are my bestfren...

bad had a crush on him...and he keep telling me all about him...and him give a little respond on bad...that make bad damn happy...he keep telling me how he love his live now...and then they go futher in their relationship...bad became abg angkat...and maybe korang tengah gelak sakan but in reality itulah bad...some of our girl bestfren pun perasan...bad getting better everyday...sebab die selalu ade rase rendah diri...tak yakin...but with him...he glowing everyday...but then come hazwan...he like the other side yang bad xde...he getting into line...people start talking...and him give a different respond to hazwan...and hazwan keep telling in a secret...they had a relationship that no one should know...

and people mouth cannot be shut...bad dapat tau semua skali...and a little mistakes that i make...turn him down...i just cannot help it...both of them are my bestfren...i treat them like my brother...i know all hazwan scandal with him and i just keep it to my self coz i dont want bad to be hurt and i dont want to lose hazwan as my bestfren...i'm so sorry...damn sorry...deep in my heart i didnt know whut to do...right now i can see everyone makan ati and kecik ati...when bad see hazwan with him dia makan ati...and when hazwan see bad with him die kecik ati...and bile dieorg act like that i terasa hati...i dont know whut to do...bad trying to throw him away but susah sebab die org yg betul betul bad crush on...and hazwan trying to denied everything but prove and statement is everywhere...

i x cakap bad betul hazwan salah and i x cakap bad salah and hazwan betul...but i know one of them is reading this...so please...i beg to both of you...think before u do anything...i tumpang gembira kalo u gembira and i turut sedih kalo u sedih...and hazwan always said yang xde org faham die...die selalu alone...no hazwan...u always have me...i'll try to do my best to make u and bad happy...i x bleh tgk 2 of my bestfren sindir sindir...i susah hati...i sedih sangat...and i feel like i'm crying alone...i selalu dengar cite aniza...die kata bad slalu tepon die nangis nangis...kite kan tau bad tue orgnye macam mane...die dgn kite x same...i bleh sembunyikan perasaan i...i good at hiding my feeling...and i bleh mengalah...and u a very good person...u pandai...cepat tangkap...u bleh berdikari kat mane mane pun...u bleh buat...i bleh try buat tapi bad xkan boleh buat...die x same dengan kite...hati die rapuh...die cepat kalah...i sedih sangat bile org cakap pasal my bestfren...

lepas nie him nak berenti...continue study... a boy with flying colour result should be in u not in jusco spending his 'no life' life...after him go away i hope everything will be fine...i didnt ask u to stop seeing him or whut juz if u want to do it plz keep it away from us...and i want u to remember this...u not alone and i always said this...if u happy i will be happy too but if u sad...i feel like crying too...for bad...jgn terlalu mengharap...like i always said...cinta datang dan pergi...kalo kite cari die lari...kalo dah dapat jangan paksa...hanya mase yang menentukan...

sebelum i stop this luahan hati...i nak ingatkan kat all my bestfren...i selalu katakan...setiap kali dengan u guys...i feel like i'm a big brother who need to take care all my younger...coz i'm the oldest between us...and i want u guys to know...i will and still take care of u guys no matter whut happen...i try to support every one of u and make u happy always...and if i had made a mistake...plz forgive me...deep in my heart i'm soo sorry in every mistake i make...

to both bad and hazwan...3 years not a short period...i know both of u inside out...so plz guys...if u want to do sumthing plz think before do it...i will always support both of u...coz u are my bestfren forever...

for him...juz dont give people fake hope...and dont mess with my bestfren...if u dont want him to be in your life...u should have been rejected him at the first place...and if u sincere with the other one...what can i say...i juz happy for both of you...coz i can see when u with the other one...u get warm...and became hot...but with him u became cold...whutever...as long as u dont mess with my bestfren cukuplah...coz i love to say this...revenge is soo sweet...

damn sorry if this entry sentap a few people...but guys...i will always love u like a family...this entry juz a reminder and luahan hati i jer...jgn sbb entry nie we fell apart...plz dont...again and again...sorry if u guys terasa...sorry...sorry...sorry....

if u wonder how him look alike...

this is him...

cute isnt it???that grin will melt u down...that eyes will make u awake all nite...the voice...akan terngiang ngiang...hurm...no wonder 2 of my bestfren fell for him...

warning...plz dont ask where i get that pic...didnt i tell u???i good at hiding sumthing...and good at finding sumthing too...bless me...

till then...buhbye...still luv u guys...